i'm dead

light, darkness. opposite? are you there? where is WOAH SON OF A BITCH.

i know everything.
really everything.
where i died.
what Linus in primary school was talking to me about.
there is no concept of time in heaven*.
i even understands what happens if your wife dies and you remarries and you all go to heaven.
but i do not wish to explain or rather there is no need to.
your mind would not comprehend.
this might be the only thing that would help you guys understand.

you have a dog.
your dog is hungry.
you have food.
the food is poisonous.
your dog feels as if you are mistreating it because you do not give it the food.
you understand.
the dog doesn't.
you are the dog.
God is the master.
he knows whats best for you.

emotions? i do not need them. for i have the most important feeling of them all. i cant put it in words. it is impossible. i really cant. i have no shell. i am everything. i am you. i envy you. i hate you. i love you. i care for you. everything. entity. be with me. i am. i will. i shall. sway. stay. hope believe.



the understanding. i yearn to live. i cannot.